My Struggle

I realize, perhaps, that you may not know me.

Thusly, not only do I thank you for reading this material, but allowing me an opportunity to introduce myself.

I was born Terrance E. Williams aka Gangsta, New Orleans HotBoy. I'm presently 31 years old, and an inmate incarcerated since March 6, 1998-- for CCE Continuing Criminal Enterprise and Solicitation to murder.

I am a man who allowed the trials of this world to steal my dreams of playing professional football. At the age of 21, I was arrested. At that point in my life I lacked discipline, not only for myself, but others as well. I became infatuated with the lusts of this world: materialism, sexism and money. This purported my desire to deal and sell drugs. The justification I sold myself on was the catalyst of my mentality. I felt that if I didn't provide the service, someone else would. Why shouldn't I make the loot?

Consequently, the result of this primitive thinking, resulted in a sentence of Life, plus twenty! I now face the reality that I may never experience life to the fullest.

Please don't feel that I am seeking your sympathy, I'm merely telling you about me. Furthermore, this experience allows me to understand the mercifulness of God. In the midst of the darkness of ignorance and hell of incarceration, God has allowed Light in my life. I'm able to now see my ineffectiveness, and insufficiency as a man in America. We have failed our women, our community, and our God. We've failed in our basic duty to protect and provide for the precious gifts from above.

Finally, some may call this simply "prison religion." To those I ask... what better place to seek God, than at the bottom of the pit? God places us in situations to remove the hinderances around us. All in efforts to save our souls.

Terrance "Gangsta" Williams